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I hate it when you get mad at me. It makes me feel like i dont belong. I wish there was another way i could help you, theres so much pain i no your going through. You need someone in your life that cares and loves you well im always here, i will always love you my dear. I cant explain the anger i get when i hear that someone has hurt you, it just makes me so mad i hate to see you when your sad. I want to go back to the times when you loved me as much as i loved you. We had the time of our lives but now my life without you is nothing but a bunch of lies. You understood me and always knew how i felt when i feel pain, ive never played at you like a game. We had so much care but i was never there. I feel so ashamed like im the one to blame. I just wish you could forgive me and you would come back into my life but now im dealing with trying to survive. I think of suicide when i think of all the times we fought and just had so much hate for each other. I want it to be like old times where you would always come to me about your problems and you wanted me in your life. I just love you so freakin much that i cant explain it. I say i would kill for your love but that would mean that i cant spend my time with you and its killing me enough to know that you hate me. I feel so much pain inside but nothing on the outside. When im not with you my insides are slowly dying out where you cant hear me when i shout. I hate it to see you cry because it makes me feel like its my fault and i just want to die. I need you in my life and i want to help you. I no we have our ups and downs but when im not with you i just want to drown, drown myself in my own blood. I hate it when we are always apart because without you i feel worthless but when im with you you light up my world. I dont no how i am living without you rite now but i just wish that one day we could leave all of the bullsh** behind that has happend to us and just start all over. I want you back with me. Im a wreck when your not around but when im with you im easy to be found. I just want the best for you even if the best wasnt me, i just love you so god dam much but you just cant see. I need you and love you but i hope all the hate and pain in your life can turn around someday and you can be happy again. My hearts easy to win all you have to do is just walk in because the doors always open. I feel so alive with you but feel dead when your gone. If theres anything i mean anything i can do to make your life less miserable even if it makes my life hell then please tell me because i want you to be happy. You are just the best that has happened to me and i want you back. Im sorry for everything i did to ever hurt you because hurting you is the last thing i wanted to do. I hope everything works out fine and you cant find the good in life even if i wasnt the one. I want you to know one thing and that is i love you and always will even if you dont like me. Your always in my heart no matter what.
(This is me just venting my feelings for a girl named ashley. Her life is hell rite now and she needs someone in her life but shes lost trust in me. I still love her and I wish she forgives me someday but until then i wish her the best of luck and hope her the best. plz comment the favor will be returned.)
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